Tuesday, 6 October 2009

Puff puff

I'm a smoker.

There I said it.

As a smoker, I of course know all the horrible things smoking does to me. Trust me. I know it all. But I still choose to smoke. I have no inclination to quit at the moment although I like to think one day I will. Just not now. Why? Partly because popping outside for a cheeky fag while Son is napping, or in the evening when he's gone to bed and Husband is checking his e-mail, gives me thrills. It's the only time I am doing something that has nothing to do with Son or Husband. It. Is. Mine. It may be bad for me, but it is still mine.

One thing all smokers hate is being told and nagged to stop smoking. And to hear, the whole "do you know what those things will do to you!?" ... YES. We do! Really! And guess what! We've got enough with our mother's breathing down out necks and pressuring us to quit without you adding to that. And NO it doesn't make me more likely to quit, if anything it makes me want to start chain smoking in a little one-finger-up to you salute.

Really. It must be the most annoying thing in the world.

And what gets me is 90% of the time the people who are nagging me are people who don't actually care about me. And I don't mean that in a "boo hoo, why don't you love me?" sort of way. I just mean they are random work colleagues, who occasionally I do the niceties with when we happen to bump into each other at the water cooler. But other than that, there is no talking, or how do you do's. So WHY do you feel it's your place to ask me what I am doing when you see me going out for a fag, or to leave posters on my desk with quit smoking help lines.

If you're not careful, next time I light this bad boy up, it'll be right up your ¬£$%$^¬£¬""%&*


Heavenly Housewife said...

We all have our little vices. Everyone is allowed a couple in my book.

tinahead81 said...

i've never smoked, but i can imagine its sort of like dieting..if i wanna eat, i'm gonna eat!

my hubby quit after about 16 years. both of my parents quit after 30 plus years. when you're ready, you'll stop...if not, tell the haters to go scratch!

Theta Mom said...

I never was a smoker, but I can see how addicitng it could be and how that would become annyoing with "don't you know what you are doing..." Yeah, I know what I am inhaling, now shut up so I can have a smoke!!! Like anything else in life, when you are ready to make the leap, you'll do it.

JenJen said...

I smoked for a few years while in college.
I still light up on occasion while living it up at a pub or something like that.

Miranda said...

I smoked through college. I smoked almost a pack a day. I quit the day I found out I was pregnant with my four year old. I have not picked up a smoke since.....

My BF smokes. She has four kids. She quits while pregant and nursing. Then smokes again when finished. Whatever makes ppl. happy. I am not to judge.

By the way, I love the nickname you have for me.

Loukia said...

I've been a smoker, too, since I was a teenager. I quit several times - the years I was pregnant and breastfeeding, and a year when I was in University. Recently I wrote a blog post about quitting smoking and I did for a while and then slowly started having a few here and there. It's the toughest habit to break, for sure, and I feel terrible that I even do it socially because I'm a mom now... but as a smoker... it's tough to give it up. I know.